I think Draven needs a haircut! haha!

My beautiful boy Draven

You'll have to wait until tomorrow for updated Brandon pics

Here's Draven from today

The Angels are coming for Mummy! :(

I just read this new report on Jade Goody which was reported about 5 hours ago. It's just so sad! I watched her wedding on TV the other day and cried so much! She only has hours left now apparently

Jade Goody, the cancer-stricken reality television star, has told her children that the "angels are calling mummy" as she gathered her family for what is feared could be the last time.

Jade Goody discharged herself from hospital last week so she could die at home.

In an emotional meeting, her sons Bobby, five, and Freddie, four, brought flowers to her bedside for what was supposed to be an early Mother's Day party.

But the 27-year-old, who was heavily sedated and exhausted as she nears the end of her battle with terminal cancer, could only muster a few words before falling asleep.

The Big Brother star's mother, Jackiey, yesterday said Goody was clinging on to life "hour by hour" after her condition deteriorated over the weekend.

Goody, who was diagnosed with cervical cancer last summer, discharged herself from hospital last week so she could die at home.

She told her sons then: "Mummy's going to heaven soon. I'm going to be a star up in the sky, so when you are looking up you will be able to see me and know I'm there, always looking over you."

When Freddie asked why his mother was so sleepy, Goody replied: "Because the angels are calling Mummy."

Her publicist Max Clifford said that Goody had hoped to spend time with loved ones at her home in Upshire, Essex, over the weekend, but it had to be cancelled because of her rapidly ailing health.

Instead, the boys spent most of yesterday afternoon playing in the garden with Goody's new husband, Jack Tweed, 21, who had joined other family members at her bedside.

Mr Clifford said: "The boys went to see her and she was aware of them for a brief moment or two. She saw them and she smiled.

"She has put her house in order and faced up to everything in an incredibly brave way. Now we're waiting for the inevitable. It could be at any time, we just don't know."

A priest also visited Jade yesterday to say prayers and blessings. Father Francis, of West London's Ealing Abbey, was chosen by the star because he has beaten cancer.

SO IN LOVE!

I can't believe that I can make such cute kids!!

All my life I've had the lowest self esteem, never figured I was worth much myself etc, yet I can create the most beautiful people in the whole world!

It makes me question what I've been thinking my whole life, clearly I'm worth more than I gave myself credit for!

They're just perfect!!!

Hehehehehe River Conway!

Shane's at work, and I'm about to leave to go get Brandon registered and collect his birth certificate etc.

All those months of arguing about what to call him, and it's all in my hands now anyway... hmmmm shall I be a really evil cow and have him registered as River Conway as I've wanted all along, or leave him as Brandon... hahaha!!

Oh Shane you really should've booked the day off!!

I knew it was too good to be true!

Hmmmm, I thought Draven was ok with Brandon entering our lives. But now on a daily basis he likes to slap him around the face and such.

It's starts off innocent (I think!), he'll go up to Brandon and stroke him and say "oooh, soft!" But then he starts to look like he's being a little rough with him and I say "Careful Draven, gentle!" and then he screams out, slaps Brandon and falls to the floor with a tantrum!

(although as I'm typing this, Draven just said "aww where are you baby brother" - he's asleep in his cradle still).

Sometimes it's dangerous though. Brandon was in his baby bouncer the other day and Draven came along and lifted it to the side and Brandon almost fell out. I freaked out, spanked Draven and put him in time out. But that's no solution, that'll make him resent Brandon even more!

Draven's become so clingy too. He'll literally cling onto my legs and say "mummy! mummy! mummy!"

One minute he's all love for Brandon and he's so sweet. The next minute he's like a posessed demon!

Good day!

I took Draven and Brandon to Mother and Toddler group today. When we got back, Draven was tired and wanted a nap (yeay!! It usually wears him out!). This was around 1pm.

So I figured Brandon would probably wake up now. So I laid him down in his crib next to my bed and he stayed asleep... hmmm?!

So I jumped into bed right away! He started to stir, so I figured "here we go!" But then he went back off to sleep again. Next thing I know... It's 3:45pm!! AHHH wonderful!!

I fed Brandon and gave Draven a snack and started on dinner - PERFECT afternoon!